.nothingness

2006-09-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

IAGA akltg 16-18 dec 2005.Who I am makes a difference.(: IAG 06-09 june 2005. 22 days closer to his return.(: We're all stars

A COACH!Happiness is a feeling when you eat happy meal.

Goodbye to my old display name.

What happened to my child-like innocence and burst of hysterical laughter? Sometimes I really feel alone and lost. Not knowing what to do except to sleep. Sleeping kills time. Yeah. I think blogging is kinda boring me out.

22days;

I never had someone that knows me like you do. The way you do...

2006-09-07T06:51:00.000-07:00

Craziee daisy tagged me.

01) Single,taken or crushing?
hmmm, I am not sure myself.

02) Are you happy with your life right now?
Absolutely.

03) When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
Urmm, am I suppose to know the answer to this?

04) Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Hehs, can you hear my heart breaking into a million pieces now?

05) Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
Cheating love? Hmm, cheating has never been part of the school rule and temasekians have integrity.

06) Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
No? Like I always say 'Angry also no use. Cry waste time.' That person should just shoot himself to death.

07) Have you talk about marriage with another before?
Urmm yea, we're talking about it right now, right?

08) Do you want children?
Prolly? And if that happens, I will join them(children) every night in the noise-making ritual before going to bed.

09) How many?
How about half the world's population? Adopt everyone as my child lahs.

10) Would you consider adoption?
Urmm, Yea. I guess...

11) If someone like you right now,what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
Like do a morning announcement and announce it to the whole world. Bahahahahahaha.

12) Do you enjoy getting into relationship?
Am I suppose to say yes or no?

13) Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did.
We kissed, we made out and held hands. Yea. We really did that. Hahas. I was kidding, mann.

14) Do you believe in love at first sight?
Urmm, yea. Troy and Gabriella is an example.

15) Are you romantic?
Yes, I hug my bolster every night. So romantic yah?

16) Do you think you can change someone?
Yea. Hopefully in a good way.

17) If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
Singapore? This is home, truely. Where I know I must be....

18) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
Hehs, I dont fight. I talk cock. as in nonsense. Not the other stuff you are thinking.

19) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Yes. I love my big big family.

20) Have you ever broken a heart?
Maybe. Maybe not.

21) If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you deeply in love with, what would you do?
I'll see if the guy is handsome or not. If he is, then I will disfigure him. If he is not, then I will just burn my best friend alive.

22) Are you missing someone right now?
Yupps, my big family and boing boing.

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Now I'll have to ask 5 of my friends to do this survery in their blogs. Write down their names in the list below.Tag them in their blog to let them know.
1. Amy
2.Fadlon
3. Dawin
4. Cheryl
5. Can I tag back the same person?Hahas. Anyone who is reading this please do this on your blog.

2006-09-03T03:42:00.000-07:00

Kids are like monkeys, only louder. - homer simpson

high school musical.

I personally watched it like three times. And everytime you watch it, you learn something different. This fun and gotta-get-up-and-dance movie shows us all that "We're all stars".

Remember we're all stars(;

2006-08-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

it's time I learn how to be happy for myself. One of the akltg coaches says that I dont celebrate my victories enough. I guess so too.

I miss him loads.

10 days;

2006-08-26T04:07:00.001-07:00

studying at airport on thursday. bring $$$ along for lunch okaykays?

8 days nearer; almost impossible to countdown so we decided to count upwards

2006-08-23T08:59:00.000-07:00

hellos.

I am back on.

turn on your amplifiers and your electric guitars and get ready for a roaring concert of our big big family!

I think we should go out for lunch someday! Recruiting boys for the big big family. I sympathize toiletbowl cause he's like the only guy. Recruiting! Add in buddy okays!

technically speaking, I should be doing my dnt project. But it gets boring by the second. Hmm, thinking of Singapore Idol and identities. I really think that you changed alot alot. I will not mention names here but i guess you know who you are if you're reading this. Just because she is cool doesnt mean you follow her. What suits her might not suits you.

I pon grad nite meeting. Cause we didnt even know where to meet and stuff? hehs

Hi, my name is gorilla and I <33 toiletbowl, toilet shit, toilet flush, sissy, crazy daisy, bumblebee and buddy!(in no order of merit please!)

go out someday please!hahas. i think we're gonna be great funn.

5 days;

2006-08-21T03:45:00.000-07:00

I so <33>

'second star to the right, and straight on til morning, twankabelle. i'll be waiting for you.' from Ben to twankabelle who is one of his nieces. That's so sweet of Ben

To Ben who is somewhere out there in NZ. I miss you.

"When You Say Nothing At All"

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear whenYou don't say a thing

[CHORUS:]The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near you drown out the crowd
Try as they may they can never define
What's been said between your heart and mine

[Repeat chorus twice]

(You say it best when you say nothing at all you say it best when you say nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know that you need me

[Repeat chorus]

(You say it best when you say nothing at all You say it best when you say nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know that you need me

(You say it best when you say nothing at all You say it best when you say nothing at all)

thanks for the wonderful memories! 1461 days; 3 days closer to his return.

2006-08-19T05:06:00.000-07:00

I will definitely miss his laughter. And yesterday at changi airport wilson was in shorts and singlet running around looking for ben. It was row 9 terminal 2 I will never forget. Believe you me. 18/08/06 I will never forget.

You say it best when you say nothing at all;

2006-08-10T07:51:00.000-07:00

I dont care, Joanne has to be the crazy daisy and Seow has to be the crazy bumblebee.

I won't be blogging so frequently no more. And hopefully no msn no more. But when I do, please be so so honoured okays. Been studying for the past hour or rather trying to. But managed to read a page.

Let's just see how things go. Please let this be the last time that I hear your voice again.

Its just artificially superficial. Is it really just me? Or is it just a superficial front that all homosepians put up?

ohh reminds me of discrimination against homosepians. Hope I spelt it correctly. I always have this problem with spelling.

I always have this thingamajig for spelling. Hehs. Anyway,this would most probably be the last post until further notice. But there's always a tagboard you can tag!(: Its been a pleasure knowing there's people reading my blog. hahas. Till then, my blog would be in eternal slumber.

by popular demand, chat log that proves youyuan's love for ruixue?

~~:: sNoWie ::~~^-^Rui Xue^-^ says:
yo!!!!

IAGA akltg 16-18 dec 2005.Who I am makes a difference.(: IAG 06-09 june 2005. the lakehouse(: has been added to the conversation.

Bola Bola very very happy !! " says:
yes
IAGA akltg 16-18 dec 2005.Who I am makes a difference.(: IAG 06-09 june 2005. the lakehouse(: says:
hi
do u like rui xue
Bola Bola very very happy !! " says:
huh
siao
~~:: sNoWie ::~~^-^Rui Xue^-^ says:
oi oi
Bola Bola very very happy !! " says:
what happening
how was ndp
~~:: sNoWie ::~~^-^Rui Xue^-^ says:
don't anyhow say leh
IAGA akltg 16-18 dec 2005.Who I am makes a difference.(: IAG 06-09 june 2005. the lakehouse(: says:
rumours say that u like rui xue
~~:: sNoWie ::~~^-^Rui Xue^-^ says:
what the..
Bola Bola very very happy !! " says:
wah who is the one
~~:: sNoWie ::~~^-^Rui Xue^-^ says:
wah liao
IAGA akltg 16-18 dec 2005.Who I am makes a difference.(: IAG 06-09 june 2005. the lakehouse(: says:
dunno
~~:: sNoWie ::~~^-^Rui Xue^-^ says:
i want to kill that person sia.
IAGA akltg 16-18 dec 2005.Who I am makes a difference.(: IAG 06-09 june 2005. the lakehouse(: says:
i want to ask if this rumour is true
fishbola
Bola Bola very very happy !! " says:
yes
~~:: sNoWie ::~~^-^Rui Xue^-^ says:
oO?

~~:: sNoWie ::~~^-^Rui Xue^-^ is actually impersonated by leslie.

IAGA akltg 16-18 dec 2005.Who I am makes a difference.(: IAG 06-09 june 2005. the lakehouse(: is impersonated by wee hong.

And bola bola is fishbola okays.

If you do not understand what I am talking about then please dont ask. If you can't persuade them, confuse them.

Happy birthday in advance, boing boing(: -draws an imaginary car-

~~[edited.explicit content deleted. Its not been a pleasure]~~

2006-08-09T18:50:00.000-07:00

click here

You dont need a plane to fly,
plastic wings may make you cry.
kites dsmade on a windy day,
launchers with balloons fly away.
inflatable pants
you may as well steal
if you want to fly
all you need is friendship

aww, i think spongebob is sweet(: To great friends out there, you all rock(:

2006-08-09T00:58:00.000-07:00

You gave me wings and made me fly;

Stuffs like this happens all the time. He pms-es.

How do I start? My friends and I have been in this competition since last year and we are keen to send in AN entry this year.

Define 'An':
Used before nouns and noun phrases that denote a single but unspecified person or thing: a region; a person.

We had a great idea for this advertisement and oh great. We don't get a chance to enter. Cause photography club is sending in two entries. They actually wanted to send in three. They don't even give us a chance to prove our worth.

Who is gonna give us a chance if we give you our's?

Tell me what you want, what you really,really want.

2006-08-08T03:58:00.000-07:00

I shall post some random photos. the kit kat tin is empty.

National day was alrighte. Just that the parade was pretty screwed. National pledge taken wrongly. School response also quite bad lah. Kanna tio by Mr Sara cause of that. Its the sec ones fault not ours.

The concert went on okay. Until the counting part. It was soo *rolls eye*. She keep rushing us. And think she informed yue hao only last minute. That's why we couldnt deligate the job properly.

Singgg Singg.
The singing part went on well.(: Jun kai didnt want to hold my hand. Hahas he end up holding this girl from 2S hand lah.

Seow Xin Yi the crazy bumblebee and Joanne the crazy daisy

2006-08-07T01:59:00.000-07:00

You saw the best there was in me;

I beat pearson in arm wrestling!Woots.Left hand.(:

I so love my dad. I realised the importance of my existence.

A hero lies in you(: Mariah Carrey's Hero is nice.

I love photoshop elements.

I miss drinking tehping. And who wants to be my crazy bumblebee?

2006-08-03T07:52:00.000-07:00

HOHO.remember the high-fives and the handshakes.

why does it have to go like this. I didn't know that you were so selfish. I am so aghasted.

I like my adidas vanquish w!(:

2006-07-30T01:31:00.000-07:00

Joke for ben teh.(:

taken from neena's blog

Lee Sum Wan : Hello can I speak to Annie Wan?

Mr. Sori : Yes u could speak to me.

Lee Sum Wan : No! I want to speak to Annie Wan!

Mr. Sori : You are now talking to someone! Who is this?

Lee Sum Wan : I'm Sum Wan. And I need to talk to Annie Wan! It's urgent!

Mr. Sori : I know u are someone and u want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?

Lee Sum Wan : Well just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother was involved in an accident. Noe Wan got injured and now Noe Wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now Abely Wan is going to the hospital.

Mr. Sori : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital from the accident that isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!!!

Lee Sum Wan : You are rude. Who are you?

Mr. Sori : I'm Sori.

Lee Sum Wan : You should be sorry. Now give me your name!

Mr. Sori : I'm Sori!!

Lee Sum Wan : I don't like your tone of voice Mr. and I don't care, give me your name!

Mr. Sori : Look lady, I told you already I'm Sori! I'm Sori!! I'm SORI!!! You didn't even give me your name!

Lee Sum Wan : I told u before I'm Sum Wan! Sum Wan!!! You better be careful my father is Sum Buddy. And my uncle holds a very big position in the company. He is Noe Buddy!

ben teh

2006-07-30T00:48:00.000-07:00

FRIENDSHIP: THE UNCANNY CONNECTION
PART 8 BEN TEH

A tribute to BEN TEH(:

Starring Ben teh and Xin Yi.Hehs.

If anyone gets high on sugar and urgently needs to be eccentric, you can always count on ben teh. He is my joke buddy. I like him best cause he likes my jokes. And he is funny! Birds of the same feather flock together? Or at least something like that.

Scenario 1
Ben: I think you are funny.

Xin Yi: Thanks!

Ben: Planes!

You get the joke? Thanks(tanks) and planes goes together. At least we think so.

Scenario 2
Ben: ... because they dont like you.

Xin Yi: Ehh!

Ben: B

Xin Yi: C

Ben: D

Xin Yi: E

Ben: F

Xin Yi: G

Ben: H

Xin Yi:I

Ben: J

Xin Yi: K

Ben: L

Xin Yi: M

Ben :O

Xin Yi: No lah, its N

Ben teh, ben teh. Go for your dreams. I know someday I will be in the cinema watching your movie and most probably be stunned by how good your movie will be. As everyone know I want to be a motivational speaker, but you know what? Someday after my motivational speaking career is over, I would be a movie director most probably making movies that inspires people to be someone they always wanna be. Ben teh just aspires me to be someone great.

Ben, I just somehow know, this intuition within me tells me that you would be someone great. I most probably would cry on the day you leave. I will always miss seeing someone laughing at my jokes so hard. Nobody laugh at my jokes so hard as you.

All the best in New Zealand.Please be back soon. I will be waiting okays. 4 years is long but I know you will be back.Pinky promise. No one breaks pinky promise.

P.S: I pray that your days be not devoid of laughter. Be someone you always wanna be. Thanks for the great time today at church. Remember the high-fives and the handshakes.

2006-07-24T08:11:00.000-07:00

You never fail to disappoint me.

I am sorry,I can't be perfect.

I am never as good as you think alright.

2006-07-20T06:52:00.000-07:00

Sec1 Induction [to be continued]

http://s64.photobucket.com/albums/h183/madded/?action=view&current=DSCN0088.flv

click on the above link to view the process of the game of concentration.A bit blur though.

http://s64.photobucket.com/albums/h183/madded/?action=view&current=DSCN0092.flv

click on the above to view the cheers of the super enthu group.

I should have taken down the chicken dance.Aww,too bad i didnt.

2006-07-20T06:29:00.000-07:00

tosseh? eating competition

Some random pictures I took on my camera.

on this special occasion, everyone is eating tosseh.

me and my big mouth and my tosseh.
scandal!

2006-07-17T01:07:00.000-07:00

I know I have not been a good kid.
I am sorry.
I promised I will ~~try~~ do my best to be a good kid.
I promise to do better for bio and other subjects.

2006-07-16T05:44:00.000-07:00

The wind blows
The grasses bend
And The dance
is a joy to behold

Embracing the wind.Kelvin Kern

2006-07-13T08:13:00.000-07:00

There's a hero,if you look inside your heart;

I just want someone to be proud of me, that's all. And three cheers to boing boing.(:

dad: you should set aside some time to study and not play and play.
me: - angry- i studied until 3am last night.
dad: - keeps quiet-

he expects me to mug and mug. Like what? When I scored full marks for maths, he just said 'very good'. He didnt say that he was proud of me or anything.

2006-07-09T08:44:00.000-07:00

I am totally blown away by you.
i just realised that my coolpix is s3 and not s5.hmm,ohh wells.~~i feel bad):~~

2006-07-09T04:05:00.000-07:00

You don't have to be afraid of what you are;

2006-07-07T04:43:00.000-07:00

And when a HEro comes along,

Although HE pms-es sometimes and all those 'magic word' and daily rants on how our temasekians have lackadaisical, insouciance and nonchalant attitude, I think he is the only teacher in temasek who really looks into the student's heart.

Today, we were listening to this song called 'Seasons in the Sun' by Nana. And its like uber high pitched but even so, he touched my heart.(:

Mr Tan: -goes to our table- where is joyce?
Us: We saw her today. But dont know wherer she go.
Mr Tan: -disappointed- Hiya, I chose this song for her. She is really a good girl.

Let me ask you which of the teachers in temasek has not give up hope on joyce? She is kind of labelled with post-it. And on the post-it it says 'hopeless'. I think he really looks into people's heart.

Past does not equals to the future.

Goodbye to you, my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we've climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and ABC's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees

Goodbye my friend, it's hard to die
When all the bird's are singing in the sky
Now that spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
Goodbye Papa, please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along
Goodbye Papa, it's hard to die
When all the bird's are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little children everywhere
When you see them I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
Yeah yeah

Goodbye Michelle, my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground

Goodbye Michelle, it's hard to die
When all the bird's are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone
All our lives we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time
We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

things to learn from this:
1) believe in yourself when no one else would
2) believe in others, you never know. Others might need it.
3) always write small little notes to encourage people(:

2006-07-06T05:31:00.000-07:00

TTP aka Total Truth Process

A process whereby one party shows the other their mistakes.

I am angry...

I am hurt...

I am afraid...

I am sorry/regret...

All I ever wanted...

I appreciate that...

I love you...

to boing boing, thanks for daily morning spree.really appreciate them(:

2006-07-06T05:08:00.000-07:00

Disclaimer: The following content is solely for those who know what is going on and ______ can mean a few persons. Names would not be disclosed to protect their identities.

I do get pissed off. It's not that I don't. I just don't want to show it out. Just because I don't show out doesn't mean that you can push me over.

Zuhairi was doing his literature project. I was sitting with him. And then, ______ started mouthing the word 'loner'. Natural reaction would be to fight for your own rights. Like come on, my friend is doing homework and I shouldnt disturb him right? And I started to sign back. Mind you, ______ was quite a distance away. Have to sign right?

And she says ' Don't flirt with my boyfriend. Out of bound'. Even her friend tio shock. What the hell was she talking about. I decided not to fight back. If I were to do that, situation would get worse. Come on, I know you high class okays. I low class. You rock. I suck. Happy?

I swear that I was on the verge of slapping her and hating her for life. But if i do that, her bf with beat the crap out of me.

Things to learn from this incident:
Never let anyone affect your mood.

Some random things that I can smile about:
1) daily spree with my boing boing
2) rahrah-ings to come
3) making differences in kids' lives.

Choices have consequences. It's your life. Live it. Or else others will live it for you. - Xin Yi

RAHRAHS(: and the morning disco-

2006-07-05T05:04:00.000-07:00

Its uber hard to text or msn my boing boing):

2006-07-03T09:04:00.000-07:00

I was bloghopping.And I stumble upon this coach's blog and such makes me want to be an assistant coach.See my 'want' list?(=I will be back. I will get my studies on track again and I would return glorious?Haha sounds like I am fighting a battle.

I will continue blogging if I find the time.If not, you would have to have pyschic powers to want to peer through my inner thoughts.Till then...

I want to RAHRAH like there's no tomorrow!

~~sinceyouhavebeengone~~

2006-06-16T07:41:00.000-07:00

OUTWARD BOUND SCHOOL SINGAPORE
PULAU UBIN 12th-16th JUNE 2006
Part 1

DAY 1
We all came to pungol jetty late because we left the school late.Hahs.Yepps.Then we all took the boat to pulau ubin.The boat I took first went to camp site 1 before heading to camp site 2.There were quite a number of us so we had to split up to different boats and waited for each other.We were then split up into groups.RAFFLES,MARCO POLO and COOK(IES).I was in RAFFLES.My instructor was Melissa. Harris,Lek,Fariz,Mansur,Nab,Atiqah,Siti,Louis,Jiaqi,Rini,Nelson,Aleem,Yue Hao and Aditya.We were all lucky that she is retiring and so she tries not to scold us.She kept our valueables and started to select I/Cs.I am the store I/C.And I have to make sure that the equipements are there if not we will all have to PAY.PAP.Pay And Pay.We cleared the store.I can't remember i think we did the belaying thingy.

Climber: Am I on belay?

Belayer: No you're not.

Climber:That's me

Belayer: Squeeze Check.Pull Check.Instructor Check.

Climber: Climbing

Belayer: Climb on

Climber: Falling

Belayer: Fall on.

Then the food I/C cooked our dinner while we pitched up the tent. We took a hell lot of time pitching the tent and then cleaning up the mess tins.At night, we all had briefing for tomorrow's activities and continue clearing the store.Then we had fire drill while we were clearing up the store after that we all had to sleep in tents.

DAY 2
Marco Polo and Raffles went to do rock climbing together before we learn how to kayak.And we paddled for 3km to camp site 1 where we elect the SEA EXpedition LEADERS.They are...
CHRISTOPHOR, ALEEM, KHAILA( i think that's how you spell her name) and this uber cute girl but unfortunately i forgot her name.At base camp site 1, the place we had to pitch tent for the night, we had no proper toilet and we had to do our business in the WILD.Cool ehhs? At night some people had night sentry duties and then i heard farzirah screamed.All of us heard people singing.Some people singing karaoke at the fishing village.

2006-06-11T01:21:00.000-07:00

Raise Your Voice
DON'T hold back.
DON'T give up.

Music Video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JSg43ZLIdCo&search=raise%20your%20voice

Movie Trailer:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWbp7s360xg&search=raise%20your%20voice

Never did this movie came out in Singapore.So anyone going out of singapore,please tell me.Can you please please help me buy this movie?Preettyy please.Anyway this story is kinda inspirational.Here goes the synopsis.
Raise Your Voice stars Hilary Duff as Terri Fletcher, a small town girl with the voice of a big-time singer. When a personal tragedy interrupts her steady life, Terri defies her father’s wishes and secretly heads off to spend a summer at a Los Angeles performing arts academy. But the school brings a whole new set of challenges for Terri, who suddenly finds herself part of a highly competitive program in an intimidating new city. Though initially overwhelmed by her new surroundings, Terri rises to the occasion with the help of some newfound friends, an encouraging teacher, and a first love that captures her heart.

http://www.raiseyourvoicemovie.com

like woah.Someday I'm gonna make it big.This movie makes me so wanna be a movie director.(=hmm,I wanna make a movie and be a motivational speaker.I will make it big.And Dawin will help me do up the movie website.

2006-06-07T06:36:00.001-07:00

ITC CAMP 2006
5th June 2006 - 7th June 2006

These three days have been filled with mixed emotions for all of the facilitators.Literally, filled with tear,joy and the pain.

DAY 1 - 5th June 2006

We started the day by coming early in the morning and helping miss tan with her frying pans.Trust me, she nearly brought her whole house there.Then we went out to have lunch with Andy lau, Miss Wong and Miss Tan. The camp started off with the 3D MAX lessons while i made ICED milo for them.Angel and mortal game. They all took a hell lot of time to settle down and dinner was delayed.They sabo-ed the whole game by not putting their names in and some people put their name twice .Candle war was alright.That was the only game that went right for that day.

DAY 2 - 6th June 2006 (06/06/06)

Everything on that day didnt went well.We all had scolding from each other and from the teachers and students.

During colourful war, instructions were passed down wrongly and so there was anger in one of the teams.They werent suppose to go to Dolphin Lagoon to report to dawin if they got a stupid colour.They can just go on to the next station to get another colour pencil.But they got the wrong instructions.And so happen that _____ was in their group.

_____ was very tired as said by miss tan.How can the teachers play the game when they dont even know a single thing about it?When dawin wanted to compensate them with a power card, _____ didnt want it.By the way, power card allows you to stop that team for 10minutes. TEN!And she didnt even tell the group that she didnt want power card.And the team leader called Dawin to clarify and his tone was like as if dawin wanted to sabo his group.She said to dawin something like this 'We walk here walk there waste so much time only stop the other team for 10 minutes' And who says that you can only go to that station.There is still other stations.

The game ended due to the wet weather.My plan was to wait until the rain stop to play beach games but they already out of sentosa when I call miss wong.So our beach games were wasted. We packeted to school and had debrief. We all weren't all that happy on that day.Miss wong was sick and so the whole schedule was changed by _____ and miss tan.

Then we had project runway.It wasnt all too bad.But we were all badly affected by the sentosa games. Night games were simply rotten. Tank Commander failed miserably.And what came out of her mouth?'Terrible.This is a terrible game' And so happen that I was standing right behind her.

So we all concluded that stuff we heard over the radio were true.

DAY 3 - 7th June 2006

We all had prata for breakfast. You Sheng said that it taste like plastic.I was merely saying what you sheng was saying and _____ said that that was being blunt.Looks who's talking.Isn't she even more?They packed up the lab while we settle some stuff for photo hunt. Photo hunt was very stable and so it was alright.

Then we played two games created by Miss Tan and _____. The first game was okay.But until the second game... Miss tan was explaining half way then she didnt know how to explain so _____ took over. _____ literally changed it that you yuan's water race was not a game anymore.It was combined with her game. There was this part about the stick. When one person dribble the ball with the stick to the end point they have to leave the stick there.Then how will the next person take the stick to dribble the ball?And so I asked her since she was the one who created the game.

This is what she told me."What are the game organiser for?" Making it sounds like I never do anything as camp committee.I almost scold her the f word.Like come on, get a life.

We all also thus conclude that _____ got something wrong.Really.

Camp committee.You all did a great job although you all werent recognised for it.

Factors that causes failure for games at sentosa (CAUSE)
1) Rain (we had wet weather programme but it wasnt raining went we reached sentosa)
2) Wrong instructions were passed down.
3) Did not clarify with I/C

What can we do better?
1) RAIN is unevitable.
2) Instructions should be made clear
3) Clarify with I/C if its not clear enough.

jing yu

2006-05-27T18:08:00.001-07:00

FRIENDSHIP: THE UNCANNY CONNECTIONS PART 7
JOANNE ONG JING YU.

Yes, there isn't a problem with your eyesight.I just wrote 'jing yu'.BLOOP BLOOP.-imaginary bubbles starts coming out of xinyi's mouth- And I begin to doubt her sanity. She wants to be known as the 'TALLIE' while she wants me to be known as the 'SHORTIE'.Please if you cant tell the vast difference of the height, then there's really something wrong with your eyesight.

Mind you, if she checks my blog and sees this post.She would be jumping around and running in circles in the toilet.Sometimes she is really random.Perphaps that's a plus point.At least we have something in common ehhs.

[other pictures not available.For more updates on Joanne please click here.]

Now now,I know you're crazy over joanne.So if you want, we can create a JOANNE FAN CLUB so that she got alot of fans. And so she wont feel so HOT.To go Joanne's fan club.Copy and paste this: http://joannerawks.freeweb.com into your web browser.It only works if you copy and paste and not directly clicking it.

2006-05-08T22:13:00.000-07:00

A Story.

Peeps,a motivating story just for you.Don't give up.Someday I hope you will tell a tale of courage of your own.(=

A once low self esteemed, shy and reserved girl got a shock of her life as she was posted to the school of her choice.But she was even more shocked when she realised that her aggregate was one of the lowest of the lowest in class.

Until one day, she was sent to this course called I Am Gifted, So Are You. She learnt many self motivation tools and study skills.As her dad was driving her home that night, her dad told her "What have you learnt today?How are you going to use this tools that you learnt to help and make a difference in people's life?"

It really set her thinking.What does she really want to achieve?She wants to make a difference in kids' and people's lives.She planned out her life path and decided that she would become a motivational speaker.And now she is well on her way fighting hard like a CHAMPION should.

-the end-

Papers may have come to an end.But this is not the end yet.It's just the beginning of a new chapter.If you choose to do your best.The choice is YOURS.CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES.You choose the way you behave.You choose how you lead your life.You may have done badly in the past.You may have made bad choices.BUT the past does not equals to the future.

"If you have a good past.The present would be better.The future would be the best"-AKLTG manual-

HUGE HUMONGOUS ENORMOROUS THANKS TO(TO BE CONTINUED)

those who had made a difference in my life.Some way or the other.Directly or indirectly.Many thanks to you guys out there.

Trainers and Coaches at AKLTG.Trainers for sharing the story of ROCKY, HELEN KELLER and CARL BRASHEAR[click on the hyperlink to read the inspiring story of them].And the coaches for not selling me out and not making things easy for me.Whenever I feel like giving up.I would think of the swing log which i attempted for 3 consecutive days until I got it right.It was a tough fight for me fighting to stay on the swing log until i reached my goal.Thanks for making a big difference in my life.Both my groups 'Holy cow' and 'Achievable chickens' for supporting me and making me the enthusiastic me.[I know the sentence structure is abit wrong but still]

The three girls who goes with me to my breakfast cum lunch.Hahas many fun and laughter we had.Joanne,Cheryl,Cecilia.Thanks for the wonderful wonderful memories.See,I am nice.See,now I damn broke cause I go out with them for my breakfast cum lunch.

My wonderful kiddo friend who is learning how to drive now.You know who you are.Drive safely and dont knock down pedestrian okays.Later you kanna sentence to death.Then kanna HANGED.haha choy okays.I dont want to curse you.

Mr LEE QINGDE.I salute you manns.Your camp file so thick.You make a good camp in charge.Must learn from you(=Haha i see that you have survived NS somehow.Thanks for the many wonderful guidance.

MISS WONG CINDY.hahas 19th may.why never take leave on 19 want to take on 18 cause can take present right.haha I knew it.Yaye new mac come le.Can make new SVA video.I bet you will die like last year.Just wait and see(=

Joshua.My brother.(= Yes.I know you like that monkey.You're not late larhs.Still got extra 15 minutes.Continue to strive and do well for your o's.I will go to your clinic and please give me a discount.I am broke because of SOME WOMEN.

MINGJIE.Hahs.Jiayou for o's.I will see you at the top.Thanks for comforting me when I was down.I think you would have forgotten about that incident already.But yea anyway thanks.

FC.haha yes the whole bunch of you.Work hard.Strive to do well.FISHBALL.well done.I know that you have studied very very hard.Continue to work towards your goal.Hope to see you get promoted to NA.The rest of you study hard.And dont disgrace me.Stop it about the voodoo dolls.Its not true!

You.yupps.I am sorry it didn't worked out.But I hope we still can be friends.(=

-And someday, I will be one of the most POWDERFUL speakers in ASIA.-

I may depict a character that might be easily forgotten.But I hope somehow I made a difference in your life and at some point of time I brought fun,laughter and joy to you.

CHEERS TO WORLD GREATEST FRIENDS.

Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher

kudos.(=Until then, till the next time we meet.Or somehow fate will allow us to meet somewhere down the road.Tata

2006-05-04T20:42:00.000-07:00

Disclaimer: All of the below is just out of pure randomness and might display crude content[to you].The author bears no responsibility.Thank you

My 90th post celebration(version 1.1).

Brought you by President Of Miss Wong cum Miss Tan cum Qingde cum Clarence cum Philemon cum Snake Fan Club?

Currently its exam period and thus the lack of update.You know the cause and effect relationship.has.Yupps.I am finally back to update my oh-so-dead blog.Joanne has been trying to help me revive it but yup.It's still dead.Its a non living thing.How can you revive it?You have to be scientific.

Hotwings.Let me tell you a gay story.This two person went to KFC to buy hotwings.Hotwings wasn't as spicy as advertised that they would breathe fire but nevertheless, they enjoyed KFC.And i just realised that my past post was about KFC.Any way, they wanted to burn down the counterstaff so they could get more hotwings.Yaye.Some Story by me and gerald.Coolness.Its like wishful thinking.But we can dream,can't we.

As the title said 90th post.You're in for a big surprise.Uncut,unseen and ~~uncensored~~[sounds wrong].~~Its like never seen before pictures.~~

I just dont understand what thiam wei is trying to do but,yarh he's quite photogenic in this picture.

What are you trying to do?Playing catching I know.I still remembered Dawin and Fishball went to SINGAPORE POLY to play catching.

Deathbed photo.Black and White. We can set up our own comics shop and our comics book will be the International Bestseller and win the Whitebread award.

Take a look closely at his pockets.coolness.[:

I think he got very irritated with us cause we didnt want him to go home.

well,we wanted to irritate miss wong and we left them with no privacy and started taking photos outside the control room.Can see that is taken from the window right?See the reflection.

I just realised how much we like to take photos with our mouth wide wide open.
disclaimer: this is just pure randomness.

KFC Adventure

2006-04-01T07:22:00.000-08:00

The KFC adventure @ Bedok

Proudly presented to you by
Miss Wong cum Miss Tan cum Qingde cum Clarence cum Philemon cum Snake fan club.

On a particularly sunny day, a few hunters decided to go on a hunt for CRISPY chicken. And they found it at Bedok interchange at one of the KFCs. You know?KFC with the finger licking good sign and the old man mascot?

We thus came to a conclusion that we should never bring Fishball to KFC. Why? Compare and contrast yourself.

VS

We have taken a close up shot just for you!

And so upon finishing our quest, instead of walking back we decided to take transportation. I guess it was the first time we took a transportation at an interchange that's why we were so excited.

We were taking lots of photos on the bus and we started video-ing dawin lying on the bus seat. And while we were going into school, we saw adraino and we started video-ing him. And when we saw the video,he was too far away to be seen.

We missed our chance to make pirated copies of that and sell to crazy girl fanics of adraino and we wouldnt have to be hunters for the rest of our lives.

Foo Fang Ming

2006-04-01T04:50:00.000-08:00

Friendship: The Uncanny Connections Part 6

Philemon Foo Fang Ming.

the one in black shirt.The one not in black is just extra guy.He's just there for the sake of it.Yes.Philemon Foo Fang Ming aka fireman.He speak in a weird lingo.Fireman talk.This ever so helpful guy has energy of an energizer bunny.He prefers to call funny bunny, 'funny sunny bunny'.You might not be able to tell but I can tell you that he likes Happy tree Friends.Yes.He looks very cute but no he's saddistic!Looks are deluding you know.

he's photogenic isnt he?Come on,take a look at him and you know that he likes happy tree friends.haha.oh whees.But he's nice.He encourages me when i feel not so high.When you look at him you can never be angry.Especially when he flashes you with his smile,you will be blown away.

2006-03-16T16:21:00.000-08:00

The Newly opened WONG WONG INSTITUTE

For all mental hospital rejects, come to WONG WONG INSTITUTE where you have even better facilities.Your own room as big as Temasek's school hall and what's more its cushioned!Come down to LAB3 to find out more.

For those who newly accepted members, you will have to take the WONG WONG INSTITUTE creed.

I, your name here, person of sound body but of unsound mind, therefore declare myself as mentally insane and as a result will put myself in a safe institute to prevent harm to the people .

WONG WONG INSTITUTE is 100% gurantee plus chop much better than IMH.

2006-03-11T20:51:00.000-08:00

there and then again.Wong Cindy shall be rename to Wong Candy.She's lucky that she gets a proper name.Okay,back to the point.Wong Cindy has been locked up in the computer lab 2 control room by several monkeys which broke loose from the Mandai Zoo.The only way they could arrive to Temasek Secondary School was to pass by Institute of Mental Health by taking bus 43.The bus driver of bus 43 would be charged to court as he did not report the case of the monkeys to authorities and hearing would start on March 13,Monday.Wong Cindy,IT teacher of Temasek Secondary School, was very traumatised by this incident and so was needed to be counselled by a counsellor to calm her down.As a result she was late for her appointment."Guess what! Being locked up by 7 monkeys in my own office yesterday! How can that be! And forced to climb out of the window to get out, stupid right? I know these monkeys must be thinking that I am so fat and clumsy how to climb out... hey.. people... I do climb one ok? I only act blur, everything don't know."said the traumatised Cindy.

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2006-03-08T07:49:00.000-08:00

Congratulations.The first Miss Wong cum Miss Tan cum Qingde cum Clarence cum Philemon cum snake fan club album has been sold. It has hit the Billboard charts of the lousiest sales album of the year.

Cindy Wong

2006-03-05T01:41:00.000-08:00

Friendship:The Uncanny Connections Part 5

Cindy Wong

Yes,Cindy Wong.Finally after a long wait.Its finally her turn.As I said,theres an Ah-lian side in each woman.She even admits she an Ah-lian so what's more is there to say about.Remember those times when she would get irritated by Fishball and would say "I sit on you arhs!" kind of thing.

Because she has to baby sit her sister's baby.Which Leslie interprets as sitting on the baby.Well, she has a big big heart much bigger than her size.Really,she can be really nice and gives us sweets everytime.Once I was doing morning patrol and the three of us Shalyn,Fadhil and me were eating the chocolate she gave us.

But when she's pms-ing dont ever go near her.Fishball has ever gotten into a disaster and i guess he was walloped into fish paste and had to be sent to the factory to be re-moulded into fishball.Please dont ever try.'Cause you wouldnt want to know.And I wouldnt want to know what happen to you.Please dont tell me.

Yes,i know she looks very kind.Need evidence to support my conclusion?Look here.

Tanpuahling

2006-03-04T14:59:00.000-08:00

Friendship:The Uncanny Connections Part 4

Tan Puay Ling.

Or as known as Tan Puah Ling.Yes, thats what we call her.Behind every woman theres an Ah-lian side of her.Like what Dawin said,she doesnt look threatening.Only Miss Wong look threatening.Trust me.Provoke the Ah-lian side and you DIE.Don't worry,if you die just call the fan club.The first thing that comes to their mind is to burn hell notes for you.

So far,no matter how hard we tried to provoke the ah lian side of her,nothing happens.So we just wait and see.Fan clubbers, just continue playing with the 'oh-so clean' trolley which is most probably not clean by now and see what will happen.

yes,thats us so desperately learning how to fly.

Tan Puah Ling can turn ferocious.Yes she can.Fan Club,your task after finding the mummy snake is to see the ferocious side of Tan Puah Ling.She's nice.really.She allows the fan club to play the trolley in lab 3. But if she ever sees how the trolley can turn the fan club hyper i doubt she will ever let us touch the trolley ever again.

Due to the popular demand,the fan club album will be sold at only $1 trillion dollars* at all major bookstore.

*1 trillion dollars monopoly money.terms and conditions apply.

Dawinho

2006-03-03T19:19:00.000-08:00

Friendship:The Uncanny Connection Part III

DAWIN HO.

One of the most interesting thing about our fan club is our members.Out of the many members dawin ho leaves behind an impression at the back of your mind that he's a cute little guy with a big mouth.When you get to know him a little better you will realise that he's no sane guy.

He can do the most extraordinary things you never knew he could do.He's pretty good at web designing and his designing skills are good but its just that the pictures mostly are taken from maple story.If you want to know how sane he is check this out!

that was us try-ing to be superman.that's how sane we're.

by now you should have realised that our *takes a deep breath* miss wong cum miss tan cum qingde cum clarence cum philemon cum snake fan club is for only non-sane people and currently the club is too full to accept anyone else.If you would like to join our affiliated club you can call the Woodbridge Hospital or take bus 48 from the bus stop at Temasek Secondary School.

(C)Copyrighted.All faces of Cindy Wong,Tan Puay Ling, Lee Qingde, Clarence, Philemon Foo, Dawin Ho, Aw Rui Xue, Gerald Chee, Ong You Yuan, Ong Thiam Wei, Leslie Lau and Na Xin Yi are registered trademark of the Miss Wong cum Miss Tan cum Qingde cum Clarence cum Philemon cum Snake fan club.

Ongfishball

2006-03-02T17:54:00.000-08:00

Friendship:The Uncanny Connection Part II
Ong Fishball

This guy who gets amused easily by Leslie's famous pole dance.He's one super loud guy.I was talking to him before assembly and he was talking so loud that the person next to him whom he dont know asked him to lower his volume.

He's one guy with primary-school-mentality just like me so I guess we clicked on quite well.We both like Westlife alot and both of us are part of the Miss Wong cum Miss Tan cum Qingde cum Clarence Fan club.Currently I am the president.HAHA.Jiayou for the next IDA video project.I am sure we will do quite well.(=
our happy family.(=

LeeQingde

2006-02-28T23:13:00.000-08:00

Friendship: The Uncanny Connection Part I
Lee Qingde.

To the guy who likes orange.Haha orange is a nice colour okay!HAHA.He's this super witty guy who can entertain and handle a gang of insane people who just broke loose from Institute Of Mental Health. Which common sense tells you is Dawin and gang.

He's the pillar of support you can lean on when you need someone.Trust me, he's one L guy.Not lame okay.Its love-able.He's one guy you can trust your work to.He even helps me with my camp proposal,burning midnight oil with me on msn.

haha.

we will all miss you!And remember to keep your promise.(=Haha I gurantee plus chop you come back on thursday ders.(=

when all hell break lose,
when we think and reminisc,
we will think of those oh-so sweet memories,
that we will miss,
till the next time.

come back soon okay?(=We curse you is because we love you okays!

2006-02-28T23:07:00.000-08:00

I cant believe that 28th February 2005 would pass so fast.It passed faster than I thought. Today's Qingde's last day.So sad right?Hiax.The whole lot of us will miss him alot mans.Tomorrow A-level results.Qingde and philemon.HAHA good luck.(=ehhs its because we love you so much that why we curse you.But anyways our curses never come true because they are not intentional.Because we LOVE you okays!I am super touched canns.Qingde,you are coming back just to see us.I am super touched lars.Good Luck okays!jiayou.Dont forget us!And keep your promise.

2006-02-23T20:38:00.000-08:00

sorry mans,i know i am bitching about too much online.I'll do my best to stop that habit lars.haha.I will do my best huh.

2006-02-22T23:10:00.000-08:00

I am tired and sleepy right now?Its not nice to scold vulgarities.I think I hvaen been pretty stressed thats why I have been saying that.But thats not an excuse.I shall kick this habit and learn how to control my temper lars.Its super stress doing games day.Its seems that its the same lot of us doing all those work.Do we look like dogs to you?*woof woof*.HAHA.Lets just see what will happen lors.

Wanted

2006-02-21T04:08:00.000-08:00

According to Qingde lars.He doesnt believe that he can get famous so easily.HAHA.Dont believe right?Wait and see lars.Lets see what we can do.

Urm.See the guy in the middle?The one wearing watch?Yupps.That's him.When you see him, you can whack him.WANTED:LEE QINGDE. REWARD:1 MILLION DOLLARS.

*HELL NOTES

2006-02-20T00:48:00.000-08:00

I am posting this in the middle of the night cause i like have no one to talk to?I guess qingde went off to bed.It dawned on me that i really deserve a slap on the face.Many many thing dawned on me.

I really miss jim baby.He's a really sweet guy I must admit.Hes a really nice guy and it hurts to see him forget me.I remember a few months ago him telling me about people would forget you when time goes by.I am just sad to hear that.I didnt expect it to hit me so suddenly.

Its really my fault.I am sorry okay.Are you happy now?

I just cant help to feel inferior.Those super smart people around me.What german,french and japanese?And me,I am struggling with chinese.Come on, they come from RGS,NYGS,TKGS and all that prestigious school.And me?Some stupid neighbourhood school.

I really deserve that slap.I need to wake up from fantasy land.Its time for me to stop.Its just me.I sometimes hate myself for being someone that i dont like.I deserve a slap.

I guess after lamenting for awhile.I guess I am alright.Tomorrow is gonna be a brand new day!its gonna be a better day.

I am alright really;

2006-02-19T19:33:00.000-08:00

I remember IAG advanced.stupid max made me do extra pushups and ram my head onto the wall and how danny made me a free flag but it was real fun.I was wondering how qiujin know zachary max lars.so funny.haha.actually its not funny.

2006-02-19T06:38:00.000-08:00

haha.look at my kitkat.I made a poem.
I got a wrapper.
Its name is snickers.
I ate the chocolate and was left with the wrapper.
I got so jealous that i ripped it all up.
And i threw it in the dustbin.
HAHA

my kitkat in the wrapper.

my chocolate unwrapped.My chocolate wrapper is so pretty that i decided to ripped it apart.

i ate it all up.

I feel inferior.My friends take what?3rd language.japanese,french,german and what?I am struggling with my chinese alone.I feel inferior mans.

2006-02-18T23:46:00.000-08:00

You've got to fight for every dream.Every dream of yours is your passion.

2006-02-18T23:28:00.000-08:00

this post will be such an amusing post that you will laugh your heads off.hmm.how shall i start?i shall start with apologsing first.PEARSON WU!you idiot.sorry.got you into trouble.okay, we were laughing and we got caught by mdm ashika.I admit yes, we were laughing at you but we werent laughing at you being fat.like who wants to laugh.Got what to laugh about siah.We were laughing cause its amusing how my form teacher miss lela is so ever concern about our two-centimeter-above-the-ankle-length socks when mr sara is not really checking anymore and how amusing mdm ashika is trying to catch me when i pulled my socks super high already.This week like very suay siah.Are you like laughing your heads off yet?I am tired and i want to go to sleep already.Been pretty stressful this week.Games day.Camp comm.Tests.

teachers.accuse us students of things we didnt do.When we try to defend ourselves we will be deemed fit as argueing with the teachers and then we will either be expelled or parents will be called up.No matter what we do wrong or right,doesnt seems to make any difference anymore.Everything we do is like wrong already.I seem to be on the wrong path lars.I see the future as dim.When will I see the light?

Actually Mrs Hong is okay.Its just that I have a bad impression of her in the first place.But she's really okay and nice lady lars.She's a really really really nice teacher.Mr Lim is an uber nice guy!Miss Wong is evil lars.Qingde is a nice guy!haha he helps me with camp.Sometimes maybe i deserve that idiotic slap on my face.I sometimes feel so idiotic.I need people to wake me up from fantasy land.I dont own this world.I cant be forever correct i can never be always right.What am i thinking?I am confused.

About my mum.I just feel sad lars.Okay,me and my brother were both sitting down at the dinning table studying and she was commenting on how good my brother is lars.My results compared to my brother urmm how should i put it?She doesnt even say anything when i do well.I am just sad.

confused,stressed and tired.Tell me what i should do;

2006-02-16T23:13:00.000-08:00

the feeling within me is incomprehensable.I just feel the stress intensified.Camp committee is demanding.I still got my studies.I have to get a life.I need a life.Enough of the love-hate feeling.I am sick of it.Really.

i really dont want to turn back time.I just want time to freeze.If only we could hit restart button and press pause at the parts we want.Let's just wait and see how long I can last.I am really stressed.I dont know how I can meet Qingde's standard.I dont know if I can reach his standard.Wet weather program and everything.I was asking him about the meeting minutes and stuff and then he was like "you camp i/c,up to you."I feel super stressed.Let's just wait and see how I can screw things up.

This is not the life I seriously want.I dont know why i chose IT club in the first place.I realised that things are not in my control.I really hope my orange sunflower can cheer me up.No matter how hard i stare at it.It just feels...like nothingless.I hope tonight I can get everything done.Maybe i think too much.I didnt meant for this to happen.I didnt know that I would feel so stressed.Why did I even have games day?Why am I doing so much when I am stepping down during june?Why am I doing so much when people dont even respect me?Not that they dont but they often defy my orders.Maybe because I am only a sec2...

I need help really.

2006-02-14T04:20:00.000-08:00

horror and fear hung high in the air as we continued with our mission impossible.I managed to spy on some other teams.((:ohh, I am so sly.
they were looking at my direction by accident when i took their photos.

Another group.

well, today's weather was nice.okay, that was random.

them with our storyboard.

yarh,you know that woman beside fishball?she looks friendly but she is evill!!!!

yupps.us

that lady killer.

we had fun though, we had something that was breathing our necks down.that was games day.but all in all,we enjoyed it.Hey!Its Valentine's,have fun.I have no dates!I think i need to buy another batch of presents.yupps.I should.Its Valentine's,people.Have fun!Whoever say I was letting go?I believe that I still love you.

And You know it.

2006-02-09T21:14:00.000-08:00

my clan members.me,dawin and fishball and the evil miss wong[left to right]

another shot of us.the full clan together.right at the bottom,forever slacking leslie.middle row.always-mapling dawin.fishbola.artistic gerald.kopi thiam.silent ruixue.[left to right]the last row:the solo big mouth and quiet girl xinyi[mummy as in the egyptian mummy].

And we know it.Its difficult when you know that your whole clan is going to die with you.Well, at least there's people for company.We wanted to squeeze more infomation out from Miss Wong about our mission but somehow shes taken by SOMEBODY on friday.And you know it.HAHA.Why not we all go together?More updates on the clan coming up.

Actually I can't believe that our great extreme personalities really bond us together.We bonded so well after one competition.SVA was a long competition and the journey was unforgetable with crazy characters like:

the mad man and jason.[not you!qingde.]

fishbola and his mutated character for robocde.

so much conflicts we created between ourselves and the upper secondary members.Even if we die in this mission to complete our video, at least we die together.three cheers for our clan.

I will survive;

2006-02-08T05:31:00.000-08:00

Dont steal our MISS WONG away.On the sly somemore.Might as well join us.Join miss wong fan club.

2006-02-07T03:51:00.000-08:00

Things turned out real bad.It officially now the battle of the five clans.Our mission had started.We are now in an unknown place.A tiny red dot on the map which I think is Singapore.On the east of the red dot,the gathering of the clans with Miss Wong.She wants to kill the clans who lose to the clan that produced the most promising "video".We were on a mission to save our own lives and we need to produce this thing called video(whats that?).Even if we do not know how to do it,we have to learn in order to save our own lives.Our arch enemy,*blabbers some other language*, is trying to stop us and delay us form completing our mission.Only one clan will be able to survive.Who will it be?(I really hope its us!And you know it)

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you really want to know who's our arch enemy?slowly guess.

2006-02-04T02:30:00.000-08:00

I have forgotten the taste of wonderful strawberries.I have forgotten the last time I felt appreciated.I forgotten the feeling of love.I have forgotten when was the last time my heart leap and squealed with delight.Simply forgotten.

I need to study.For my literature,maths and mock exam next saturday and I have ten chapters to study.Well,I want to do well.But I still got time to blog!(=Success isn't a result of spontaneous combustion. You must set yourself on fire. ~Arnold H. Glasow.Pour kerosine on me and see instant results!haha.I want to be proactive.

I know we are all stressed up yarh!But look on the bright side.If you have to study until 1am in the morning then do so.Do it with a postitive attitude.At least you get to stay up late.(=At least you studied.And if you studied and found the test difficult.And you think you will fail,what makes you think that others will pass?

davidlee.dont feel so bad yarh.You can do it!(= You just need someone like me to support you!(=Take good care of yourself meanwhile.Till the next time.

Go ben's blog.It uber interesting canns!Its a-must-look kinda thing.

To end it all off with a quote."I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work." ~Thomas Edison.As Adam khoo says, there no failure only learning experience.I can do it for the mock exam!(=

2006-02-03T04:06:00.000-08:00

its a long time since I last updated.I just have this sudden urge to update my blog and write about my daily routine.I have been pretty much hectic these few days.Its one month into school already.Man,it can be stressful.Many tests upcoming.Mug.Mug.Mug.

Joanne have been sick for two days.I am bored without her.Joanne, you should be honoured that I am posting your name here okay.I am so considerate.I volunteered to help keep Joanne's homework.Thank you, thank you.

Just wondering about life without schooling.I mean school had beme a part of my everyday life.School,home,play the computer,study,eat,sleep.Yups.I wish i have time for myself sometimes.I want to go to the gym.I miss the equipments.

Guess what?My CCA only has pathetic five members.And all five are going to robotics.woots!Cool huh?

I did quite well for my science pop quiz.So yupps.Here I am to present you with my new blog skin(=I saw this phrase on Xinyuan's msn nick.It real motivational and nice.(="Have courage to lose sight of the shore, then we can discover new ocean."

2006-01-01T06:34:00.000-08:00

A big big thank you!

to all those who played a part in my life.especially all those at akltg and all those with me in the camp[06-09 June 2005 and 16-18 december 2005] who supported me at the swing log.To akltg.i will be back.someday.I WILL.

After much thought, i decided to post an entry.finally after a long time.say hello to 2006 and buhbye to 2005.2005 was an eventful year.i love akltg.a really big thank-you to jeff,kenneth,max,pearlyn,gary,amin,adam khoo,stuart tan and coaches who made my journey through the swing log DIFFICULT.thanks for NOT selling me out.

yeah,coming to my new year resolutions.yepps.I want to achieve my goals!if it is possible for others.it is possible for me.number two.i MUST be a GREAT leader.theres a difference between a good and a great leader you know.Its GOOD LEADER vs. GREAT LEADER.a good leader is one who lead others well BUT a GREAT leader moulds others into great leaders.I know i haven't been a good or great leader but if i cant then i must!yes,i must be a ~~good~~ GREAT leader.And last but not least, to be an assistant coach to get a feel of what is like and to be a motivational speaker.

for now, i will continue my spewings on my own diary instead on my blog.

well, PERFECTION vs. EXCELLENCE.i choose excellence.being perfect in an imperfect world is imperfect.Being imperfect in a imperfect world is totally perfect.confused?you're getting there!get more neuron-connections!

2006-01-01T05:37:00.000-08:00

2005-12-14T18:47:00.002-08:00

its not that i lost my drive, it just that i have been pretty busy the past few days,weeks and months.Meetings,camps and competitions taking up all my schedule i barely had enough time to sleep that night.I slept at 5.30am in the morning and woke up at like 7.00 am to rush to school.

i made it to joanne's blog headlines.thats a great achievement okay!

Have you done a xinyi-friendly sport today?
ishh.forget it.joanne doesnt know what i am talking about so most probably you wont.
sam, you're likeable larhs.dont worry yea.jiaqi was just kidding.we're nice girls!haha that's what sam says.

i miss alot of people.i miss youth camp.i miss pam.i miss josh.by the way,joshua is also in camp too.joshua!come back soon!i need entertainment.mingjie doesnt want to say "xinyi is a great souce of entertainment" so he needs to be punished.with ~~blue~~PINK nail polish.

thank you,lord for the wonderful friends you have given me.thank you,for the cross.teach me to be paitient to people around me.thank you.

okay i am getting sick of the hot pink font.

there are some people whom i owe alot.(:i love you guys.the conversation last night with jiaqi and sam made me feel so love-ed again.so many people to thank.

bpmcyouthministry2oo5.especially vivian's batch.remember the class outing?our class went out together with your class.it was fun though.yea,i love the whole ministry.really wish that time could freeze and we wont have to leave.tiffie.justin.thanks for being the group's TL and ATL.(:zhimin.heyy.i would really wish to see you in church every sunday.gohsilei.lalas.yaye!go temasek!haha.continue to pray about your parental objection yea?it will go away,by faith.butt dance.(:well,i cant possibly list everyone down right?

6e2oo4.thanks for the retard-ed times we had. jim. audrey. hakim. shawn. camen. weixun. isaac. ivy. pamela. lili. may. andrew. shenfaye. hilwah. faizal. huiee. frederick. and so many people. i can never forget the times during the "Odessey Of The Mind". Our team was competing with pamela's team and we were disturbing each other.we put straws into pamela's room and faizal broke the bamboo poles.i miss hakim,may,jim,audrey and many more. sweetie,hope your fever is gone.then,audrey was using a broom to chase the boys but i forgot the reason why.

temasekians. go temasek. joanne. vinodini. joshua. shaan. geraldine. diana. christine. hannah. jessica. ziling. dawin. youyuan. leslie. thiam wei. joseph. cecilia[p.s. thanks for the tie. i will return you.] that's about all. as you know i got short term memory.when i remember some names i will come back and add.(:

to my teachers. mrs goh. mrs germaine tan.[p.s. i never forgotten you. thanks for the maths tuition you gave me. it helps,i am doing quite well.]mr lim.

sad past.only 6e will know.not much people know though but we shared tough times together.

well,theres something not alot of people know though okay.nevermind.

love you guys to bits.thank you.i owe you too much.

2005-11-30T04:02:00.000-08:00

3o11o5
as i am typing this,i think my pants are still wet.lets recount what had happened today.i met joshua at pasir ris mrt station.ohh kays i was NOT late okay,its just that the bus was late.(:i kinda really anticipated for this day.and so we went kembangan[is that how you spell it?] to wait for shaan and geraldine.they said they will arrive 10 to 15 minutes later but we waited for 20 minutes?

and then we realised that no one didnt know how to get to the ice skating ring.but we managed to get there.(:okay right.i then realised that i dont know how to skate.and so shaan,geraldine,joshua and shaun had to hold my hand and support me.but afterall,you dont skatet like a pro overnight.i did fell.haha its alright.

joshua hope your blisters will heal soon(: i know i am a good company(:thanks for the compliment and yea you are a good company too!(:thanks for the lesson about life.

many thanks to shaan,geraldine,joshua and shaun for today(:i feel happy.[p.s. i fall everywhere]

"In life you will meet many kinds of people but someday,somehow,you will meet incredible people like them"~Xinyi

The 'them' refers to joshua,shaun,shaan and geraldine.well,they know how to skate and they could had just left me there alone but they didnt!incredible people they are huh?[p.p.s. josh,i think your suppose to put the fries in the bag and put the sodium powder.yea,chicken porridge is much more healthier!]

i thinkn shaan likes to insult geraldine.how many times was that?i think i was 6 times?

thanks arhs shaun.who kept on suan-ing me.i know i very easy to suan.

2005-11-28T06:07:00.000-08:00

hey sweetie.thanks for today.we had tonnes of fun today huh?the movie advertisement is so long!haha i like the last one best!so today i saw alot of people in tampines mall,andrew,valerie,hanyang,jane,daniel,fhillio[is that how you spell his name?].thanks sweetie.it was really nice of you to go out and watch a movie with me.okays.so we bought salted popcorn and nachos.haha yuck.salted.bleahs.okays so half way through the movie we dropped the popcorn and pick it up.so i put the popcorns that are dropped on the floor into my empty nachos container with cheese left.so you know how when the cheese cools and it gets hard?and so yea,the popcorn got stuck onto the cheese.

josh!cant wait for this coming thursday.i cant wait.haha i know you cant wait too!haha.we'll have fun ice skating!i cant wait.got any one yet?

i want to complete my homework asap.but i have not get even a single one done.=Phaha after ima done with homework comes camp,camp and more camp.i want to learn roller blade and go blading with denise(:

lord of the rings return of the king is nice okay!how do you go on when in your heart you begin to understand theres no going back.i like this phrase."It is not what you do not know that harms you but what you think you know but do not know that harms you more. What harms you the most is what you do not know that you know that you still don't know".haha confused?good!

2005-11-26T23:13:00.000-08:00

today is the first day of a completely new week.the bad week is over.all gone(:its incredible how a smile can bring a day to someone else.thanks janying.for the big bright smile.(:

and my pleasure to say that our school robocode team has won not first but sixth position.but we did put in effort.and i wanna specially highlight this short little guy who used to have stage fright.youyuan.he was the guy who believed in himself.he was struggling with public speaking at the same time with his stage fright.for that i admire you.(:

today service has really taught me one thing.many times in life we focus too much on our mistakes that we refuse to go on.today service brought the little kid in me.i never knew that so many people cared about me and sometimes i felt as though i dont give a heck for them.okay,ben.i am an inbreed jaywalker.i mean how do you jaywalk the expressway?its tough lars.

joshua.when are we going ice skating?how about wednesday?i cant wait.can you teach me how to skate?i dont know how.please teach me.(:

so much people who cared about me and there was i whining about why life was being so harsh on me.okay, so i read max's blog and he had this metaphor "life is like a box of chocolates".but why chocolates?

and theres so much in life to live for.let go.there is nothing to hold onto except my guitar.X)haha so much to live for.so much to do.pretty much wasted if we let bad little things affect us..quoted by joshua.haha.thanks.

"sometimes we focus to much on our mistake to move on in life"~xinyi.

"Life is easier than you'd think; all that is necessary is to accept the impossible, do without the indispensable, and bear the intolerable." ~Kathleen Norris

so many people to thank but saying thank you could never be enough.

2005-11-25T04:16:00.000-08:00

as i walk pass delifrance at tampines mall.i saw the happy looking faces.the overcrowded place with cheerful looking smiles.their eyes were like as thought they were smiling.i could really tell that they were having a great time.i wished that i could be like them now.its not that others are making my life miserable.its just that i am making my own life miserable.

a regret that i will regret for life.i really dont know what outcome do i want.many 'what ifs' are running through my mind.what if i had never known him.would life be much easier?what if true love between two opposite genders was infactual?will everyone in the end gets in return true love?what if happiness never existed.does everyone gets happiness?

i am getting irritatable easily over trivial matters.i have changed.hope something can help me feel better.i am sad.i have no idea.i guess cause i basically screwed up this week.this week will go over pretty soon.hope having to go ice skating can help.

to my dearest denise.you might not have got the results that you wanted.but continue to work hard.e+r=o.okies.when are we going to watch harry potter?tuesday?

to audrey.i want to call you soon.hope to really hear from you soon.

to joshua. let's go ice skating next week okies.can't thank you enough.thanks for being there for me when i need someone.although not physically but mentally you gave me support.(:but i am still sad.thankiews a million times wont do.(:

to jimy.thankiews for your message this morning.i will remember that jesus is our best friend(:

reminisc-ing the past.what if i want the past to come back?to have things used to be what they are.

i could clearly remember the times when i was insane and happy.

those crazy times i really miss.

me and you.

i dont know but this photo really relives my retarded and innocent childhood with jim and andrew.

those cheerful times.those retarded times.if only we could turn back time.those tears we shared,those bright as sun smile,those funny times,those times we laughed like theres no tomorrow.those photos didnt make me smile even more but sadness overcoming me.why cant i be what i used to be?

i really didnt know this would hurt so much.i am sorry that all my actions that seems so harmless could have hurt you that much.

2005-11-24T17:03:00.000-08:00

my eyes hurt from all those crying.due to stress.well, i guess this whole week i really screwed up.holidays?so what?no difference from schooling.i am not going to commit suicide.its just a waste of my time.theres so much to live for,why waste it?i am still young.why go onto a relationship when i can even screw up in text messaging.you see,i am such a 'power' person that ben even gave me an award for not knowing how to jaywalk at opposite shaw house.he gave me a bowl of choke.okay.yes,choke.okay.let's just put a stop to all these.like joshua said,its just a bad week.it will blow over soon.thanks bro,cant thank you enough.

i lost touch wiht ny emotions.i am not the person you used to think i am now.i have changed.I am numb to my surroundings.i dont want to know.what if one day,love was infactual?this is just infactual.love is just an infactual thing.maybe love is just another 'play play' thing.love has different defination.which is the true defination?

okay.so when theres truth.there would be lies.amazing how lies can hurt people?i am often find myself amazed that i could tell a lie that hurt people so much.i am so amazed that i could hurt people so much.those little actions which seems normal,can hurt people.

2005-11-23T16:37:00.000-08:00

actually its truely a great pleasure to serve the sec4s for their graduation night.though the process of waiting is long and tiring.having to carry plates in different style and having to clear the plates in different manner.by 9 o'clock everyone were sitting on the floor in the 'unglam' way along the corridors of the hall.which we were suppose to take our dishes.having to drink some cold water kinda helps to perk yourself up.

maybe a word of encouragement did work.true indeed,the past does not equal to the future.if you want somethingyou gotta work hard for it.it doesnt drop from the sky.and guess what all these did push my friend and yes.the past does not equal to the future.my first step towards motivational speaking.(:

it all lies straight down in my pride.my self esteem.josh had taught me valuables things that no one can ever every in their life teach me."there's so much to live for, so much to do.. pretty much wasted if we let the bad little things affect us when there's so much more beautiful things in our lives.."everything is against me.but look at what joshua said.theres so much to live for!why waste it like that.i just all of a sudden feel stressed.everything going against me.now.wow.its just a mistake.freaking out over a mistake.its just a bad week it will just go soon.thanks buddy for ensuring me that i will survive through this week.(: thanks brother.hugs-
prayers work!daddy god had shown me through joshua that he will take away my pain.and poof!pain is gone.thank you.sinfully regretfully sorry for the screw-ups this week.this bad week will soon be over!(:thank god and joshua!

i mah officially sinfully regretfully remoursefully sorry about what i have said.a puny 13-year-old with a primary school mentality who doesnt know the meaning of h****.i officially declare that this word is harrassing and thus shall not be use at all.i cant sleep.i am having nightmares.i mean.he deserves someone better.rather than having one who hurts him all the time.i mah just a 13-year-old puny girl.he deserves much more.

2005-11-21T03:33:00.000-08:00

let's review the events happening this week!me.have been busy this few weeks with council and competition stuff.i feel sleepy all of a sudden.most probably shagged out.i did not have the time to do all the things i want to do.wow!new record of seven days!SEVEN days!okay.i dont want to review about my week anymore.its frustrating and irritating.
hmm.well.i shall leave the rest of the post for dedications.[in no order of merit.]
cindywong.bleahs.thanks for the hard times we had try-ing to figure out flash.(:pretty c.haha.i cant believe its you on the video!we truely had fun in the SVA yea?It wouldnt be the same without you anymore.okay.i making it sound like as if you are leaving like that.
youyuan.fishbola!you better take the costume yourself.its time to grow up.though not physically but mentally.yea.i know our normal volume is LOUD but cant blame us.its just too natural.
dawin.next time we see miss wong we stand in one straight row and wave yea?haha.miss all the fun and laughter we all had when we first started doing SVA.a new year begin and soon a year end.this year would never been complete without you guys!
mingjie.can see that your tagboard is in err... big mess?you must listen to the advice i gave you.although i am younger than you like about two years but my advice is quite good okay.our video good right!(:haha sorry lars.shoould have taken a professional actor but that is all i have.
sva team.we all had a hard time thinking up of ideas to fit into the story.and the story was like total crap!and of all of the ideas.we have to choose mine.hias...anyway,life would completely not be complete without you.YOU!yes you guys.guess why i wrote sva team and not individual names.cause i just too lazy to type and i cant afford the time!unless you pay me to advertise your name.Passion for SVA.(:
joseph.sorry for the nonsense about the cd thing.and jiayou for SVA.haha.have fun doing it.dont feel stress doing it.have fun through the process and learn.
animation team.okay basically the same people.ruixue.gerald.me.hah!we got frustrated with the dumb Flash MX.okay.we cannot really say that flash is our passion but still.we are done with it.
robocode team.yepps.the same people again.haha all the best for the upcoming event.(:
you.yes you!you lars.the one who keep calling me crazy woman in hokkien.okay!fine lars!i admit that i am crazy lors.haha.sorry lars.write you until so bad.you are nice canns?(:miss you.
joanne.i dont know why she make me feel likes she is so bitchy.you should know who lars.all the best for your studies and canoeing.happy canoeing.(:
vinodini.i did wish you happy birthday okay!just wanna wish you again.happy belated birthday!(:

2005-11-14T07:15:00.000-08:00

hehs.read stuart's blog."Life is never always a bed of roses with a 24/7 rainbow over it. Looks nice, but so unreal.~stuart's blog.

true indeed.why dont we get life as bed of roses with 24/7 rainbow over it?why dont we lead a carefree and life with no stress and without problems.It is through all these problems we strengthen ourselves for even greater challenges ahead of us.

i cant really say i am a good leader.well,i get feedback from my cca president.he commented that i lack leadership skills.i am an empty shell.with character but no skills.well.i take that as a compliment.as iag says.take control of your state.out yourself in an empowering state.sometimes when you are ready.its just the people around you that puts you down.are you going to let them stop you?

well.i cant get what i want.then i must!from the advanced course i am going to learn the leadership skills and show my cca president i am not that useless okay.(:after all,for things to change i must first change(:

visit http://www.stuarttan.com today![p.s.stuart you should thank me for this(:hugs-]

AKLTG IAGB 06-09 June 2005.Empowering lives.Designing destiny.whoosh[replicating blueprint.(: put yourself on the line.]miss iag

yarr.i am jealous.cannot arhs?are you happy with my answer now?:P

2005-11-10T01:15:00.000-08:00

i saw this very meaningful phrase on gary's blog.(:"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. "~Mary Anne Radmacher

leslie.take the first step.dont wait for people to do things for you.if you want something,make some effort.and do something about it.your "yes" does not seem convincing enough.there is a whole lot of people supporting you.now its the strategy.if you dont win this year.take it as a learning experience.replicate other people's blueprint.model them.theres no failure only learning experience.theres no greater failure other than not participating a 100%

SVA.we are nearly there.1/3 of the movie more to go and we are done.(:

fishbola and dawin(:

me.dawin.trying to be spastic

this is the reaction you get when you try to hamtam fishbola into fish paste.(:

ahh!spasm.[left to right]me.dawin.fishbola.cindy.(:happymoments.

dawin.sit!

from SVA.i learnt alot.had fun too.well,fun times and yet stressful times yea?this post is kind of a self reflection post.yea.i have to admit,there were times i want to give up.but hey.we are nearly done and after all these are done,it will feel like as if it was yesterday we started filming and yes i would really miss those memorable times.and those pictures we took together.those times captured on the photos.those photos we will keep.We maybe munky,gorilla,chimpanzee but we all shared fun times together and we went through quite alot yea?platinum.we will bring the glory to temasek!haha take a look at dawin's creation.http://www.tms-itc.com/ninemoonrelic/SVA_B4FILIMING.gif

2005-11-09T02:31:00.000-08:00

I am not a quitter.and i dont plan to be one.trust me.this sec1 batch although we are crazy but sane and have a mentality of a primary school kid,we are all victors and not quitters.through SVA i have learnt alot of things.

And alot from stuart my buddy.he told me that team building is needed to express emotions and understand each other and that people need opportunity to align with each other.As a group we must play,reflect and learn.apply learnings as a group.as a team leader,you should have good rapport with your team members or else your authority is diminished.thanks buddy!

its not easy to a team leader.i know.cause i have been one.and those under me has been through terrible times.to you guys out there.dont give up!we are almost there.we are near our platinum or our special merit award.if i cant then i must!yea.if we dont make it this year, we analyse what went wrong and reapply and new strategy and replicate a blueprint from modelling other schools yea?

jimmy.i saw your sms.(:thanks for sms-ing me when you are bored.although i cant always entertain you[though i am a good entertainer,haha,self praise].do what your heart tells you.although i would be very very sad that you would go for your soccer training than to go out with me.but this has told me that you really love soccer.dont let this post affect your decision.do not do things to please others.lastly love you(:

may.maysie poogie woogie.you better watch out this coming friday.called me xinyi tootsie wootsie.haha.cant wait to this coming friday.love you.(:hehs.comparing who's more evil?just wait and see.

2005-11-06T17:41:00.000-08:00

finally.a day when i can rest at home for a day.even though it is school holidays.i have to go back to school regularly for competitions.so sad huh?i have not even touched my homework yet.a day to rest.because i am sick.got fever.

jimmy!i cant wait till this coming friday.miss you so much!may is coming too!haha fond memories of our retarded and yet innocent times.we still have our primary-school-mentality you know.haha will stop here.(:

2005-11-05T02:08:00.000-08:00

yea.i know my blog is saddistic lars.open house is utterly boring.Mummy and daddy!xinyi loves you!(:just wondering who would our cca vice president.my batch.no hope already.unless they recieve my motivational talk(:! on proactive,reactive and inactive.

proactive.sees it and does it.thats me.heehee.reactive.see other people and then do it.inactive.100% ignore.if only.

no if only.if i cant then i must.at least must give it a shot.(:i want to step down next year.i dont know.

2005-11-02T16:35:00.000-08:00

Maybe it waswrong of me to have held bitterness in my heart.Maybe i should forgive her but bbut i need to do now is to seek for forgiveness for holding bitterness in my heart.i am sorry.

i learnt something.about leadership.well.a leader doesnt force his team members to work but to talk to them into doing things.but i force.a club or society under a good leader is able to run with its leader around.

2005-11-01T05:16:00.000-08:00

it seems mean to give the cold shoulder to her.but why should i care?yes.i forgiven her.i am not angry but that doesnt mean i allow her back in the team.i am mean.what is the problem with her?she dont want to do.say i force.i now do my own things she come and irritate me.what is the problem with her.my paitence has limits okay.

yes shaun.you didnt know i can get pissed off?so now you know.i know i very sweet tempered.[hah,self praise]i am just super super irritated.by almost everything surrounding me.I have changed.changed into someone i dislike.someone i hate.i have become more ego.i have become more irritating.i have become a quitter.i have become everything i dont like.

failure stops right here.

i shall not irritate you anymore.(:i am so kind.(:hah,self praise again!whee.back to school again tomorrow.by the way.dont act as if you were so concern about the competition.is not like as if you care.asking about tomorrow.you told me you dont want to go to school for the whole week except for the VR training.wow.amazing how you can predict your life.

2005-10-31T06:25:00.000-08:00

i just recovered from my splitting headache.nope.not on caffeine high.sometimes i feel that i have changed.changed into a person that i dislike.i find myself as a pure waste of space and oxygen.but the most important person in the world is myself(:.ego.my panadol works(:.its effective.hehs.i am tired.feel that my eyelids are getting heavier by the minute.

miss wong treat me to starbucks.the coffeetaste like those normal nescafe packet coffee and it cost like 5 bucks.but she made me change three trains.three times.i guess my ezlink card would be negative.

bascially we called everyone on the contact list to find out where to get feathers.WHITE feathers.no other colours.you dont expect a pillow fight to have a brown looking feather flying all around do you?-hugs for you-

let me tell you the different response i got.derek ask me to get from swan.quite a handful ask me to kill a bird and take out all the feathers.[p.s. the bird must be white]the other one tell me kill chicken take all the feather and the chicken also can cook.what the.

who taught you all the lame stuffs?me.who talked to me on the phone till midnight?me.so who leave the deepest impression?NOT me.you hurt my self esteem.haha.(:

2005-10-30T06:29:00.000-08:00

i am losing my paitence.i am losing my cool.i am going crazy.i am all stressed up.i deleted my previous post.(:

asther,no hard feelings yea?hope you are feeling better.i am sorwie if i hold bitterness in my heart.

my daddy knocked some sense into me just now.blogg.so what?times and times in life.you will meet this kind of people.its just like what adam khoo taught.theres no failure only learning experience.

a leader.talks into his team members and without forcing to push his team members to do their work.if a team leader forces his own team member than he has failed to be a team leader.

yes.each and everyone has the spark and the potential in you to be a team leader.but have you had the courage to take up the challenge?have you ever tried to be a team leader i should say?i losing grip of everything i held passion for.

if that is what you say then i had nothing to say.or should i say i am even happier?i remembered the funny incident adam khoo had on the road.made me smile(:

smiles.(:

liuwenqiang.thanks for the advice.i will try out tomorrow.(:hope that it will stablise my mental condition.cause my mental condition is currently unstable.(:iheartsyou.thanks.(:

derekcheng.you owe me present.(:2 lehhs.go out with girlfriend never buy present for me.(:heehee.go watch teevee dont want to talk to me then like that go offline lers.so mean.

hah.shall stop here.i am tired.work is pretty overloading.(:but heyy,life is short.smile.(:

2005-10-28T17:48:00.000-07:00

for you alone deserve all glory
for you alone deserve all praise
father we worship and adore you
father we long to see your face
father we love you and we worship you this day.

to derek.long time no see.and yes.i dont have a fever.just come my school open house for fun okay.haha.anyways happy birthday and its your birthday thats why you have to buy m present.and yea.meet you up some day okay.will be back in school real soon.(:

the whole week.didnt much feel like holiday.on and off have to come back to school for some stuff and meeting.and the worst part is that we have to stay in the lab just to do some animation.it was absolute boringness.

cindy.cindy.cindythis name coould be heard all over lab two.cindy.you liar.say will give me an answer by the end of the week.by today okay.can you not leave?if you leave i send you to institute of mental health.one whole bunch of us will go with you.(:

mingjie.why is your hair so short?but your hair is nice.ohh.i just realised that i own my munky his letter for two weeks.and i have not even started writing yet.(:

the talk to joseph enlightens me.[not really.its just that i couldnt find any other suitable words]he shown the determination a cca leader should show and we should all learn from him.joseph.success will come only to you when it is welcome.(:plan all things before you actually do them.cause if you fail to plan you plan to fail.(:

melissa.sorry i couldnt turn up to your school open house.due to unforeseen circumstances.and the sudden rush of overloading work.

miss boh.you rock!i exceptionally like your class hope to see you soon.(:will visit you often and hope by the time we go sec3 you will take up sec3 classes (:

mrs ouyang left.its kind of saddening.well.at least the farewell was grand.well to me.(:

daddy god please be with me all time.i need you by my side to guide me.daddy god teach me to love everyone around me.daddy god i thank you for me results.and i know i did my best and i will continue to work harder to bring glory unto your name.in jesus' most prescious name.amen.

2005-10-25T03:55:00.000-07:00

[editted version 2.5]

i feel an invisible force pulling the 7 of us apart.dawin is angry at me.perphaps is because i said his drawing is ugly or something.My apologies to the following two people.

to dearest dawin.I'm sorry if i have said something that has hurt your feelings.I'm really sorry.yes,wee hong said that you are stressed because of me.I understand.but everyone is stressed.yes.its my fault.I need criticism so that i can change myself.But do you think i am not stressed?I am sorry.don`t be sad.

to wee hong.I am sorry.Do you know that my messenger automatically signs me when i am connected to the internet?I know you tried to send the files to me.It was my dad or brother playing the computer.Not me.So is it my fault that i am busy?Yes i am sorry. [p.s. Although you might not be angry but i sense a hint of angriness in your tone.]

i know my apologies cant make up for anything but thats the best i can do.I am sorry.

to thiam wei.congrats you went into normal acad.thats a good encouragement.dont be sad.i know you know dawin for 5 years already and you are sad to leave.but choose the best path for yourself.if dawin is truely your friend.he will let you go.i know he is sad.but its still "friends forever" okay.

to you yuan.yea.i know you all have been through thick and thin.but its for thiam wei's good.if he is really your friend,you would let him go.dont be too sad okay.

to joseph.its going to be alright.if daddy god is for you.no one can be against you.(:he loves you.i trust that your decision is the best for photography club.i support you.[p.s. i dont support you cause i dont want photography club to merge with it club.i support you cause you are my friend.(:]

to meiquan.i did my best to help you to let you hand in your report in a later time.but didnt work.do your best okay.you have the potential to be the assistant i/c.do your best.show raymond that you can do it.

to ray.dont push meiquan too hard lars.he's only a sec1.he has to learn as he go on.give him more time.just like i need time to learn things as i go.daddy god loves you okay.

i have many many other things to say but cant be type or recorded down.i feel stressed.all kinds of people i can meet in my cca.what is happening?i must commend that some people do their work and some dont.but still.dawin.i am sorry okay. I can feel the suppressing pressure on me and the overloading burden on my shoulder.you know how difficult it is for me?
"hiya.you hr/pr.you decide."i am just tired.tired of this phrase...

i feel this invisible force pulling the sva team apart.its sad.everyone has a strong relationship with each other and things have to happen.Its like we have been brothers and sisters.just remember that i love you okay.iheartsyou.tmssvacrew2oo5.or is it that i have been trying way too hard and i have lose grip of all the things i held passion for.

daddy god.i pray today that everyone would be happy.daddy god today i pray that i would be the kind of girl you would like me to be.daddy god i pray today that dawin would not be angry with me.daddy god i pray that i would be stronger.daddy god i pray that i would not be a quitter make and mould the kind of character you want me to be.in jesus' precious name.amen.

sometimes i feel that i cannot cope.i cant afford to screw up.i have decided to step down as hr/pr by next year.if you ever think that being the hr/pr is easy.you go try it yourself.this unbearable burden.this suppressing pressure on me.what do i get?cca points?bleahs.do i look as if i care?

i should have known to give up earlier to let myself feel better but what did i get in return?

thiam wei.you sure you are alright?

2005-10-24T03:17:00.000-07:00

its been sad.[once again].not about him.
the thought of everyone going separate ways.is...saddening.yes,its time for changes.but i love the way i am now.i love the way life is going now.I can put down easily now and give and take.
but why must this happen to me?the cruelty of reality seems sick.
its been sad[once again]
i dont feel the hyper me in me right now.
miss wong might leave.
gerald might go wushu.

it seems sad.
everyone going separate ways.
things will never be the same again.
the good old times we had and share.
the days we cried together.
the times we laugh together.
but all these does seems to matter.
i want it all back.
but i cant be selfish to hold you guys back.
hope we would have an even better future.

tms sva crew 2oo5.thanks for all the time we shared.iheartsyou.In no order of merit.(:
geraldcheeyanzhang dawinhodewei leslielauweiqi ongthiamwei ongyouyuan awruixue naxinyi cindywongpinhpinh

you guys truely made my day and made my first year in temasek truely truely meaningful.its really great to know that you have such great friends by your side.i have numberous which i dont think i have space and time to type their names out.

in no order of merit.[i'll list what i can remember if i left your name out,tell me](:
audreygohpinghui liewmingjie benjamintay liujiaqi liuwenqiang mayphyusin joanneongjingyi
ceciliatan yiying liming tms sva crew 2oo5

this are the current ones i remember i will add on to the list.tms sva crew 2oo5(:

2005-10-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

i was reading this chicken soup for the teenage soul when i saw this phrase."Love is not what we become,but what we already are."
I am too lost in your love.how can i get out?From then on, i should have known that i have lost it all.
and i have lost you.

Love is not what we become,
but what we already are.
Love means giving up oneself for the one you love.
Love covers up flaws in you.
Love covers it all.
Love is the extremely difficult that something other than oneself is real.
Love have no faults.
Love never fails.

2005-10-21T06:25:00.000-07:00

here i am waiting for your reply.as i saw your back facing me, i realised...as memories flood back.what have i done to deserve this?but dont give me the cold shoulder.i want to hold you tight and not cry.once i found myself again.alone facing the cruel fate.can i not let you go?i then realised that i have lost it all.iheartsyou.

failure stops right here!we will win the SVA platinum award or at least the special merit.[if we cant then we must!]if we cantget it this year we would get it next year.TMS SVA TEAM 2oo5.i just realised that i spelt dawin's surname wrongly.

TMS SVA TEAM 2oo5
DAWINHODEWEI LESLIELAU GERALDCHEE ONGYOUYUAN THIAMWEI AWRUIXUE NAXINYI CINDYWONG.woots.team spirit.(:

institute of mental health.yea.rightness.i am going in there sooner or later.[this post is short,i know.i am searching for random topics]

(:will update on SVA yea.SVA is going to take me a whole chunk of my time.I'm tired.Good night.

daddy god.help me to understand other people.help me to understand them and their difficulty.daddy god help me and give me the strength to carry on.give me the the strength and the power to overcome temptation and help me to forgive people who have hurt me and done me wrong.in jesus' most precious name.

(:iheartsyou.ilu

2005-10-20T02:45:00.000-07:00

miss wong might not be in IT club next year.how?Dawin and I agreed that we would quit IT club if miss wong quits.Its been sad.It seems that everyone is going on their separate ways.gerald might go to wushu.TMS SVA TEAM 2005.Spirit of teamwork co exist within this team.the efforts and time we sacrificed and are going to sacrifice more.

as the deadline draws near.stress and anxiety is overcoming me.lets hope we can complete our animation on time.I pray hard.

it hurts to see you in other girl's arms.I dont know if you love me anymore.but if you really find a girl of your dreams.I would let you go.If you said our love was everlasting.I wouldnt want to lie by saying i love you and my actions saying another.I would be lying if i say i love you and not letting you go with the girl of your dreams.you may unknowingly hurt me but i guess.i love you all the same.iheartsyou.

CECILIATAN.i<3youtobits.okay.dont be sad okay.cheer up everything is going to be fine.

my results are out.at least [so far] i didnt failed any subject(:i put my trust in daddy god.

i put my trust in my daddy above in heaven and he would take care of me this i surely know.daddy god i pray that i would be able to finish my entry on time before the deadline.daddy god i pray that i would be the girl that you want me to be.all these i know cause faith is like wings which brings my prayer up to heaven.

2005-10-19T08:01:00.000-07:00

my 39th post.coolness.I'll try blogging a happier post(:

LIEWMINGJIE.this handsome guy here.who never fails to pass me sweets and chocolate(:And my source of sweets and chocolates!
today.happy toilet.so disgrace.TMS SC adopting a toilet.I mean seriously.A toilet as in a cubicle or what?The presenter went on with her presentation which was kind of boring and yada yada yada.
talking about GLAM.I'm not sure if being a "ghost" in the video is called glam.wow!amazingly.
DAWINOHDEWEI.had fun during the past two days?we WERE supposedly to go for the camp but turn out that we had to stay to do our script.our script was not bad.Our script wasn't THAT bad yarr?miss the times that all of us had.
JOANNEONGJINGYI.Didn't really see you for the past two days cause i wasn't involve in the camp.sorry sweetie.
GERALDCHEE.my dear.dearest bro.have integrity okay.[not trying to say that you have none]wakakas.in-te-gri-ty.haha miss the times we had!

DAWINOHDEWEI LESLIELAU GERALDCHEE AWRUIXUE ONGYOUYUAN THIAMWEI XINYI CINDYWONG
TMS SVA TEAM.yea.this video we shall complete.complete this video we shall!And when we complete it.turn back and look at our accomplishment.and take pride in our work cause we know that we had given in our 100% or even more than that.our efforts and time and energy on this project to make sure it is a successful one and to make sure we get the platinum award and we make sure we knock out miss wong's friend!

my daddy in heaven loves me.i love Him to bits too.but daddy show me that in ways that i can guide people back to you.daddy show me that i can be the girl you want me to be.daddy show me that i can forgive people that hurt me.And through all these I know that faith are like wings which will bring my prayer up to heaven.

JOANNEONGJINGYI.i love you sweetie.<3.

2005-10-18T03:05:00.000-07:00

a big big thank you in advanced to all those people who agreed to help us out for the sva!We would love it if we were to get the platinum award.yeah.Most importantly to gain experience through all these.Theres no failure only learning experience.a big big thank you anyways!I saw him today.I was doing flash.He didt talk to me at all.At all.Maybe he is just angry?I dont know whats on is mind but maybe he's still angry about the barbie doll thing[p.s. its not the song okay.].I don't know.I kept quiet.I...okay i forgot what i want to type here but then if i do remember...Criticism and comments on our script are galdly welcome.We still can improve on the script and i promise to give my 100%.Yea!

2005-10-17T06:10:00.000-07:00

although i didnt go for the sec1 camp, we also had fun doing sva.But it was alright.I'm okay now.Hmm.SVA was fun!It was fun doing the script.We laughed the whole day and eating tibits and maggie noodles in the lab.I am beginning to wonder if ____ likes ____.But if they do really like each other, then i have nothing to say.Haha.Its okay.I feel sad.Alone and desolated.Like i had never felt that way before.
I cant help but to look back.I'm not angry.I'm not.Seriously.I'm just sad and hurt.It hurts.Maybe you just dont know.Perphaps.Yes i WAS angry.But now what can i do to feel less pain?It just feels like knife stabbing onto one place.It hurts.You were there.One moment ago,you were so close.And yet we were so distant.
I really want to let you go.But I'm just afraid to let you go.I guess.It's really time to let you go.Dont look for me.I'm so afraid that i wouldnt want to let go.I'm so sunken in.Your love i took it for granted.I'm sorry.
The spirit of SVA.We rock!A temasek film production.dont play play!

2005-10-15T23:37:00.000-07:00

I can so feel God relating to me today.Its sunday.typical.This whole week has been filled with hurt and hatred yes.hatred.But today God has set me free from all these and i praise him for that.heehee.

We come into Your presence with singing
We come into Your presence with praise
Enter Your gates with thankful hearts
We are gonna celebrate
All of Heaven's waiting
Power's on its way
So we shout 'Hallelujah'Lift it to You
A mighty roar of praise
You deserve the highest praise
We can give and more
Lord, we give our praise
That's what we came here for

its because i love you.that's why i want to set you free cause love never fails.It never will.after this i still hope we can be friends.I'm hurt.I'm sorry.I'm really not angry.Serious.I'm just hurt.

2005-10-15T04:20:00.000-07:00

its been sad.Miss Boh not teaching our class next year but i am determined to go her class!I'm changing to 4-6pm or i go the normal time.Had a fun time in class while we learn about fasting from hazree.If thats how you spell his name.
been thinking about alot of stuffs.i was on my messenger when i saw this phrase."If you really love somebody then set them free.'Cos if they come back they are yours but if they dont they were never meant to be yours."This really set me thinking.Maybe you weren't meant to be mine.Of all people why her?Of all people to scream at why me?Everytime its always the same.I really want you to be mine.
i ~suddenly~ thought of jimmy.He's really such a sweetheart.He's such a sweet boy!he send me an sms that he missed me!

2005-10-14T05:43:00.000-07:00

its been long.alot has happened.i fell.while i was walking on the rocks with asther and denise.=)its okay.im alright.thanks for your concern!its gonna be alright okay,asther?dont be so foolish and wait.i'll be there when you need a laugh okay.hope you'll be fine.trust me (:.today the few of us okay not the few,practically the whole class came back just to hand in madam sabina's work.we had this open house meeting and stayed back to collect the reports and i did the meeting minutes.I did the meeting minutes.haha.and ITS ME who did the meeting minutes!ME!hah!me.i saved meiquan froma untimely death before he really lies dead in a pool of blood being killed by raymond.hiax.pity meiquan. 5000 words report lehhs.he only did like 600+++ words.then,kanna scolding.had a fun time drawing spongebob and figuring oout png file which mingjie cant work out.the teletubbie i drew but mingjie took it as and apple with a body and antenna.although my ah gong didnt see my spongebob,i'll draw for him next time again lors.you.why you?whymust it be always you.You screamed at me cause of her.she was on the phone and we[i and dawin] were talking about the board she herself didnt even mind and yet you were screaming at us.i didnt see why you didnt screamed at the guys when i was on the phone with leslie.YOU told me to be serious.You told me to act seriously and then you go putting cockroach in miss lee pencil case when i was about to start and i was like staring with "awe".Why is it you?What's with her?why must it turn out like this?what is this world turning into.but of all people why you?

2005-10-04T01:58:00.000-07:00

I tried squeezing 120 vocabulary in my head and I went bonkers.quaint isn't it?how people like me can chiong at last minute.In fact i started studying long time ago.hmm.time management got problem.trying to fit the 120 vocabulary into my head.i have not done my science quiz and home econs quiz.alamak.it will take me hours to complete.blog again later.that is if i have the time.:)booYAH!

2005-10-03T02:45:00.000-07:00

okay,half a day is gone.or should i say more than half a day is gone and i have NOT let me emphasize again HAVE NOT started on my e learning homework and here I'm blogging.Let see.I have been mugging for the past 8hrs or so.i completed 24 chapter of my chinese and left with some horrible and pathetic chengyu.Let me empower myself.I LOVE CHENGYU!!!Hah.how empowering.i really dont understand what has gotten into me.The feeling of guilt has overcome me.I'm envious of ____.I miss you.I really wish you were here.Forget it.The cool breeze blow against my face as i stand at my balcony.Its really nice to be outside at this time.This is my 2 hours break.Let's make full good use of it!i'm going out for a breather.Yes!i better before i go bonkers with work overloading me.to joanne.yea.i will tell you when the time is ripe and mummy <3s me!one thing is for sure that my culinary skills generate nothing but nightmare.I have a brother for it f i were to ignore him its considered as an delibrate insult.i guess my life is kind of horrendous.

2005-10-02T06:25:00.000-07:00

they stead.ambiguous this statement is huh?well,that's all i am going to say.Dont ask me.I just miraclously saw them.hmm.is that considered lucky or what?well,i served in church today.served spagetti or whatever you spell that.(p.s.i'm bad at spelling.dont mind)Had minor accident though.I nearly dropped the tongs while placing the bowls.stayed back to wash the pot and crockeries.serving in church is fun.Do unto others what you want others to do unto you.hmm.ah gong!i want myself to turn into a lollipop so that you can eat me!(is actually vice versa).heehee.thats all i'm gonna say.go on with the speak good mandarin campaign!

How high and how wide.
how deep and how long.
how great is your love O Lord.
How lavish your grace.
how faithful your ways.
how great is your love O Lord.

2005-09-26T07:21:00.000-07:00

okay.only close friends [IN SCHOOL] will know what m____ did to me.i feel so raped and molested.i mean she doesnt even know that i'm pissed off with her and there she go doing something to me that i'm NOT comfortable with.What is this,man?I finally know who Rossana today.mhhmm.

When you cry,
always remember that
i'll be there for you.
that's what friends are for mah!

to my uber good buddy stuart!
haha.yarr dont have to keep thanking me for the manual.that's what friends are for mah!hugs.mhmm.to stuart.the last page of the mannual nice right?so colourful!P.S. i know that's your favourite page of the manual.hugs.

Very urgent...Please read.[thank you very much.your kindness is much appreciated]

Hey there.The title might have catch you.We have decided to hold a meeting on the 14th of october on the open house booth but the time and the venue have not been set.I will inform you again on the time and venue and these people below are BLACKLISTED and it is COMPULSORY for them to attend:
Wee Hong
Dawin
Amelia
Gerald
Sherry
Kian Keong
Meiquan
En chou
On any updates i will inform you guys again.As for what i know,people DO NOT check asknlearn forum and so i will personally call you up[i feel so useful,heehee].Thank You. Signed,
Xin Yi
[This note is computer generated and so no signature required]
**End**
P.S.Anyone on the black list please be prepared to answer alot and alot of questions.

I love you.Even if you dont love me anymore.Please dont ignore me.

2005-09-24T23:29:00.000-07:00

the emptiness within me.the hollowness in my heart.it has been there for a long time and yet i dont realise it.Firstly my public apology to anyone i had offended with my previous post especially hankuan.(excluding m_____,y_____,r_____ and a_____)Hankuan,real sorry if i blamed the whole council for nothing but still,yarr,i'm feeling much better.Yaye.I did ushering today.It was real fun.

No eyes have seen,
No ears have heard,
the goodness the Lord has prepared for those,
who wait on Him,
And hear His voice,
"I'm the potter and you're the clay"

Jesus take me in your hands
and make me that
what you want me to be.
Jesus help me understand
my purpose and what
you can do through me.
Fullfilling my destiny...

Jesus,please let me understand.You know that I'm hurt by them and him.Jesus.You know that I'm afraid and hurt.That one day,no one would be there.Jesus let me understand how to not hold grudges.Jesus youknow how terrible I feel within me.Jesus just let me understand how to forgive them."I'm sorry",I really mean it."I love you",I really mean it.Since th clock struck twelve,i decided to let go.Talking about dedications.Talking about letting go.Talking about being there for me,empty promises.The emptiness within me.Jesus take me in your hands.I wanna know that you will never let me go.

2005-09-23T04:55:00.000-07:00

okay.I'm finally back home.though my mood is PISSED.or whatever synonyms you can described being pissed off.Okay.I'm feeling kind today.So i shall not reveal their identities for their privacy.This day.I promise NOT to help ____ unless absolute neccesary.yea?guessed what happened?We like cut over 300 tickets and they like only cut 100+++?Hope they cut like theres no tomorrow.I mean without the production team what else can they do?They only grumble grumble and like laugh and not do anything and go on blabbering about how NOT perfect our work is?huh?"xinyi,your work is NOT perfect".so go on harping on how perfect your work is.We were cutting and there they go laughing like theres no tomorrow.Okay even if you want to say that.You can say in front of me.But why say in front of everyone?You're just a trimmer.Good with scissors?bleahs.You all should be grateful that we were there help.The worst is a____.He supported m____."So we have to perfect it for you."For me?like as if i need graduation night tickets.Y____ and R____ went to write on the board "hanyang loves xinyi".Oh please.stop being so childish.How would you feel if it was me writing "hanyang loves Y____".I know you will love it though.Sorry if i have to use your name.But still.Perfectionist.I hate to say this but.You're making me puke.First,they laugh like there is no tomorrow,fine.Secondly, they dont really do the work,fine.Thridly,they wrote my name on the board and associate me with hanyang,fine.They commented on how bad and how perfect NOT our work are.thats the last straw.As if your work is up to standard.How perfect can your work get?Okay. On monday,we shall go check the tickets make sure they trim until 90 degrees and must be in the correct dimension.But surely they laugh so hard until they go crooked.

I hate you.I really hate you.You're making me hate you and love you at the same time.The feeling of guilt,loving and hating you at the same time is unbearable.You stole my world and proclaimed it yours...You never were meant to be.

finally last but not least.I end by saying.Thank you for listening to me ranting(like theres no tomorrow) and i guess m____ isn't what i thought.I guess LSM is better than that m____.LSM is much nicer than i thought so.hmm...

newton centimetre

2005-09-21T04:10:00.000-07:00

mhmm.We were like doing this maths problem sum during science lesson.then madam tan was like asking for the units.newton cm or newton centimetre?Isnt it the same?Like diao.
Mdm tan:is it newton cm or newton centimetre?
Gerald:newton cm
mdm tan: are you sure?
Gerald:Yes!
mdm tan:very sure?
Gerald:Yes!
Mdm tan:no!its newton centimetre.

like diaos.whee.1 more day to record breaking!3 days without msn!close friends will know about what we saw today.(their names will not be disclosed.how considerate)____ and ____.mmhm.____ and ____ were at the bus stop and mrt together.until i start with the "woo" at ____.He pinched my ears and walked away leaving ____.I and asther saw them walking towards white sand.though ____ say that they're not together.(but who cares.so long we have fun)mhmm.

amazed.i saw you today.hmm.don't doubt me kays.love you.

2005-09-13T04:40:00.000-07:00

i dont want to cry silently at one corner.do you still love me?i miss you much much more than i show.my headaches are more of an intensity now.queasiness in my stomach is unbearable.i feel like vomitting.why is everything going wrong when everything seems to be in place?why is it two step forward and one step backwards?i guess you dont love me the same anymore.Did you know how much i ever ever miss you?I guess you'll never know.